Yes, there is reason for how messed up I feel right now.
First, there is the stress of finding a new job. I currently have 5 weeks to find a new job. Needless to say, things are not going as well as I would hope for them to. Plus there are complications in my thought process because I plan to be working for myself within 1 year. Makes it hard to find a job that you know you will be leaving in a semi-short amount of time.
A little drama going on in my life right now, too. I refuse to name names and specifics about what has happened recently, but lets just say that I’m not the only one who is hurting right now. Do I regret my decision? No. Am I miserable over the decision? Yes. But what I feel to be right should not be compromised. And I was letting it happen because I wanted it to. No one is at fault here, and if anybody is at fault, it is me.
On top of all of the downers, at least there are still 3 things that keep me going: Playing my keyboard, My future business endeavors (which are already taking shape – very quickly, I might add), and my friends. Thank you all.